help me?

urmm...
actually...i'm quite uncomfortable to say this.
i mean, idk how u guys would react.

tieq, i know ur probably getting bored already to become my loyal, good listener...
thx so much 4 being patient, n willing to listen to my whines and complaints...

but, yeah.
i feel very, very miserable now.
inside, not outside.

i think...i'm obsessed.
not wth tokio hotel.
wth pn. rozila...

it seems like a small problem to u, but it's my whole WORLD!
like i said, "love ends when obsession begins..."
seriously, I myself do not hv any idea wat's wrong wth me.

I just become, emotionally irrational when it comes to her.
i don't understand WHY??!!

to make it short, we...sorta fight.
and, yeah.
she did nothing.
get what i mean??
she didn't fight back...or, say sorry...
or, scold me 4 being emotional.
i jz hope at least she say something.
scold me, explain to me...or...simply whatever!

she did NOTHING and that pisses me off!
n now...we don't talk anymore...
i just...idk.
i need u guys to support,
suggest to me...
how the hell am I gonna stop this obsession?
it's tiring...n i feel like i'm a fucking gay...=.='

i'm sorry, i really am.
u guys r my friends...
I don't want to keep it to myself anymore.
i'm going insane!
jz hope i won't have to cry evry fucking night.
i tried to fight, but just can't.
help me, guys...
i'm confused! I feel like a piece of shit!
scheisse...i'm not like this.
this is so not me...

btw, i want to dedicate this song to her...
whom i used to love so dearly...but i doubt it now...
ugh..jz fuck it...no more love...only tears...

ps: drop ur comment plis. i appreciate it...i luv u all...
~nad~