LOST is a group of a crazy bunch of girls who laugh all the time! N nvr seem to get tired of it! We are never boring, we are never dull, we're juz girls having fun at what we do and juz busy rocking our mad world!
We've been updated with each other's lives mostly thru fb n some text msgs.. but like seriously.. this blog is d.e.a.d.. I won't be shocked if none of u read this..
Anyways what I wanted to say was:
I am lame.. Yeah, yeah.. Go on laugh at me.. (emo much.. XP)
I mean.. Sometimes, I feel like I like this somebody so damn much.. but of course it is only one sided... I mean.. dat's why I'm lame u c.. =(
sometimes, I don't think I like him dat much.. it's confusing.. so I just ignore it most of d time.. unfortunately I am in a 'girly' mood rite now so I just had to blog about it in a practically non-existant blog.. lol...
Hnn.. I guess dat's all.. End of rambling.. Dude get the fuck out of my heart n my head! >.>
I'm soooooo scared! Final exam is sooooo near~ huwaaaa... T.T
nways, Ill just try my best la.
Bah, I'm so bored. know what...I kinda like, trying to start a new project to kill such boredom (studying, I mean). That is to create a theme song for LOST. lolz. Don't guarantee its gonna work, somehow... xP
oh2, I iz sooo happeh now ... S.M.I.L.E.S See ya guys !!!
well...actually...there is no purpose actually in me writing this post. I just want to test out my writing ability. hehe. you see, it has been a while since I actually wrote anything that is decent enough to be read, especially in terms of writing a story... =.='
You see, there is a whole lot of people who is more and much good in writing, let us take for example you guys - Nad, Tieq, Teah, Una... (to Anna, your specialty is in tech ^^). and at times I feel intimidated and belittled... (lol. my grammar lect is soo gonna kill me for using 'and' at the beginning of a sentence. XD) it's just that...I tried writing and...it sucks. Perhaps it is because I haven't write and read as much as I used to be and you know what they say, "Practice makes Perfect" and practice is definitely what I haven't done in eons...huhu.
Anyway! I'm not giving up! HAHAHAHA! I'll try to write in this short span of two weeks time! And to study for my final exams! huhuhu...exams...I need DBSK to cheer me up...
and tons and tons of dark chocolate ice-cream...I crave for it...
ok, this blog is definitely dying.
how sad! T.T
anyway, I have something to show you guys!hihi...
an essay ! *squeals in excitement*
yeah, that's right.
an essay...but not an ordinary one. 'cos i've kept it for quite some time.
written during spm. but dunno why i was scared to post it.
lolz... ok, here it is.
~*~
Hallo!
Alles gut, eh?
Nway, I’m studying maths now… (yeah, rite…)
But, a brilliant idea suddenly came uninvited when I was doodling nothing particular wth my hands, just..numbers, formulas, etc.
Ok, I’m babbling. Let’s clear the bushes, shall we?
Out of the blue, I couldn’t stop but thinking about this one word “beauty”…no! it’s not bcos of spm 1119 paper… thanks to this fanfic, “Through His Eyes”…now I can’t settle down the flutters in my stomach after reading it… it’s super, duper amazing!! XD
So, I’m going to make a one-shot…just a fictional story, but, I use real characters here…no offense guys!! Just want to kill the boredom…allow me to start please…
Setting: In the middle of the world …or somewhere in Puncak Alam…
“I think she’s ugly,” Teah said pleasantly, like she’d just said the most remarkable thing in this world.
Aish stopped abruptly from her work…(I don’t know what she’s doing anyway), and replied quite accusingly to Teah,
“Why? Because she’s dark, is it?”
Teah always does that. She speaks her mind, without thinking what others might feel or react. I secretly think this is just Teah being herself. Can’t blame her though.
“No. She is ugly…and she is dark, obviously,” Teah replied confidently but didn’t look at Aish’s annoyed face anyway.
“Ugh…” Aish groaned audibly in surrender.
Dja just sat there, saying nothing.
But I know, deep inside her, she was thinking…a million oceans wide! Maybe, she just doesn’t want to say anything…yet.
Setting: Around the school canteen…
The day was pleasant…(smiles…)
As usual, we conquered two tables there…to eat. Nothing much could be done during recess…just eat. That’s when the heart-to-heart session started. Aish and Dja played important roles here…lol…
“I seriously think I hate people. I hate guys. I hate their stupid and shallow perceptions…narrow-minded much. Typical Asian man…bla…bla…”
We all just listen to Aish’s mountainous amount of dissatisfaction. Of course Tieq, Qhis and Dja will alternately butt in to voice out their opinions too…I prefer to listen. Hana and Una will just listen but they also smile slyly and laugh to any amusing part of the conversation.
Teah wasn’t there. She’s absent.
“I think it’s unfair to say someone is ugly just because she is dark,” Dja said. (I remember this part vividly)
“I am dark. I don’t like it when fair people get EVERYTHING!” Aish said out loud. (Yeah…I agree.)
When they were all done expressing their thoughts, their eyes darted to me. I stayed silent, though.
“Nad is so quiet,” Aish broke the silence.
I just smiled. I was not quiet inside! I had loads to say…but, I prefer to keep it to myself. But hey, I love it this way. I love my friends so much. Each of them has their own uniqueness that I’ve analyzed throughout our 2-years of friendship. If only my friends know how much I love them, and how desperately I want to be with them all the time, not willing to separate even for a second. But things do not go that way. We will go our separate ways…someday. I’m going to miss you guys…
Aish, Dja, Hana, Qhis, Teah, Tieq, Una…
--------------------------END OF Stupid STORY--------------------------
Hahah! Scheisse!
Aku rasa dah tersasar krgn ni…
Nway, I wanted to talk about beauty.
U know, some people just…tried so hard to show their beauty…
And compare it to everyone else…
They thought they’ll be happy that way…
As for me…I don’t feel happy that way.
I love beauty…I appreciate other’s beauty…
I have found 3 beautiful things in this world that never failed to make my day… Tokio Hotel, Rozila Daud and my friends…
I’m a boring person I know!! But I’m happy that way…
As long as I have these 3 things, I won’t ask for anything else…
One thing for sure, there are yet more beautiful things I haven’t discovered…I hope one day I can see it…and feel it…
Teah!!! I’m sorry!!! It’s a fictional story k?? no offense…huhu~~
ps: the beauty of love is to admire without desiring…
so, that's our new blog theme. if u don't like it, don't hesitate to change , ok??? just think that, we're like sisters...and nothing can separate us; cos "blood is thicker than water"... haha~ lame-o!!!!
so, i need to go now, got class after this... just know that i miss u guys so much! hope we'll meet soon! take care... all the best in studies! i'll be posting more frequently also... if I have free time. u guys better do the same, ok???
I am trying my best to keep this blog alive, peeps!!!
As we all are going to leave for uni and matrix, I think it is better for us to keep communicate from the usage of this blog!~~~~ Well, correctly speaking, most of us are already leaving... I don't think I can go to Dja's sis' wedding...sob,sob...
Anyway, HOW ARE YOU PEEPS DOING!!!???
do answer the question...and I'm holding up, trying to make new friends and such...sigh
Life is...err...I'm trying to be all philosophical here but can't seem to find the word...lol.
I WANT TO FINISH MY FANFIC! and start learning stuff...I mish studying...lol. I'm such a nerd...
later!~~
p/s to whoever who wrote the previous the post...well...if you have any trouble with money...err...I can help? I don't really have a whole lot of money but hey, WE ARE FRIENDS! lol =.='''
No elaboration. Just plain fucking anger. I'm also terribly upset. I'm angry but I'm crying. Fuck. I've had enough of that person's fucking shit I have to go through. Stop taking my fucking MONEY! Stop fucking ACT in front of me. I know who the hell took my money, don't LIE. Can't stop at a couple of thousands huh? Have to take my bloody fucking SPM money now? I can't wait to get out of here - and it's all because of u. ur an asshole who doesn't THINK who ur stealing from. just wait, when I have enough fucking money i WON'T give you a fucking cent. u deserved it. I gave u too many chances. TOO fucking many times I've trusted that u'll STOP. n u just prove me wrong ALL the fucking time.
Sorry guys. Fucking pissed. Don't ask who or wtf happened because I'm just in no fucking mood to tell anyone anything. I just had to let it all out here if not I'll start fucking throwing things and destroying my room. Fuck.
aaah... frm the title u can presume it's about love.. well, yes.. but it's a movie.. undoubtedly my favourite movie of all-time.. it's so sweet but sad.. i'm at a lost of words to describe this movie... so, i'll just post the trailer.. it's a thai movie called "The Love of Siam".. uh.. don't be fooled by the trailer.. they made it seem straight, but it's actually a gay-themed movie.. but it's awesome.. a lot of straight guys watched it n liked it.. lol.. it's just THAT good.. =/ i'm sad again.. i'm getting that depressed syndrome after u watch a too good but sad movie.. urgh.. lots of people had it though with this movie.. lol..
p.s: in the trailer, most of the time he was smiling was to his GUY bestfriend.. not the girl.. LOL.. they promoted the film as a 'straight' film to get more audience in thailand.. n this movie won like TONS of awards.. it's so weird I never heard of this till now..
Yeah.. My post has nothing to do wif CNY tho.. I juz want to tell u guys to check out Ryan's latest videos... the idiot.. i was laughing my ass off! XD subscribe to his channel if u like him too..http://www.youtube.com/user/nigahiga
n i think adam n kris is soooo cute!!! so maybe... like u guyz... i actually have a real life yaoi pairing that i like... omgosh... their so cute...seriously... X3 i'll post the vids down here..
aww... surprise huggle... adorable..
juz for fun vid... dorang berdua sengal ah... so many idiotic vids of them.. soo cute.. aaah.. soo happy~
that is all guyz.. besides that, i wanna watch the lightning thief.. i know i da beberapa kali da ckp but u know.. i hope but saying it a lot of times, i'll actually get to watch it.. =.= hnn.. not working...
anyway, that is all.. adam + kris n nigahiga rocks my socks! o.0
So! As promised, here is the link to my livejournal~~~ If you guys want to comment do tell me first at here so that I can open the comments thingy to everyone. ^^
Why don't you just forget about her? -.-' I mean, even you said it yourself that it is not love anymore, it is more of an obsession so it is probably best for you (and her?) that you let go of her for a while until you can differentiate and control your feelings well enough.
Try to make yourself busy by reading books perhaps or watching movies or maybe helping your mom (in which you are doing at the time), hanging out with us (YAY!!!), listening to TOKIO HOTEL, writing a fic (like moi!) and whatever it is that can get your head out of her because I know that it isn't easy to actually forget the one person that you have been constantly thinking (and pour your soul into) out of your head (or heart).
Hope that helps. ^^
I don't know whether it's a good advice and I really hope there's no hard feeling (lol,lol). And do remember that I LOVE YOU NAD~~~ =D
urmm... actually...i'm quite uncomfortable to say this. i mean, idk how u guys would react.
tieq, i know ur probably getting bored already to become my loyal, good listener... thx so much 4 being patient, n willing to listen to my whines and complaints...
but, yeah. i feel very, very miserable now. inside, not outside.
i think...i'm obsessed. not wth tokio hotel. wth pn. rozila...
it seems like a small problem to u, but it's my whole WORLD! like i said, "love ends when obsession begins..." seriously, I myself do not hv any idea wat's wrong wth me.
I just become, emotionally irrational when it comes to her. i don't understand WHY??!!
to make it short, we...sorta fight. and, yeah. she did nothing. get what i mean?? she didn't fight back...or, say sorry... or, scold me 4 being emotional. i jz hope at least she say something. scold me, explain to me...or...simply whatever!
she did NOTHING and that pisses me off! n now...we don't talk anymore... i just...idk. i need u guys to support, suggest to me... how the hell am I gonna stop this obsession? it's tiring...n i feel like i'm a fucking gay...=.='
i'm sorry, i really am. u guys r my friends... I don't want to keep it to myself anymore. i'm going insane! jz hope i won't have to cry evry fucking night. i tried to fight, but just can't. help me, guys... i'm confused! I feel like a piece of shit! scheisse...i'm not like this. this is so not me...
btw, i want to dedicate this song to her... whom i used to love so dearly...but i doubt it now... ugh..jz fuck it...no more love...only tears...
ps: drop ur comment plis. i appreciate it...i luv u all... ~nad~
Omg!!!!! I was soooo shocked.. biasenye fan-made music videos but this time it's the real thing.. n it's a new song.. Get Away With Murder.. damn.. he's so fucking thin!!! n his thighs are like half the size of mine! bloody hell.. soo envious.. n he has a shape!! for fucks sake la weh! no wonder he dresses in drag rite? he has a girl's body shape.. some girls don't even have it!!! lucky he doesn't put up fake boobies... D= seriously, there are parts where he looks soo sexy, but some are like not really.... o....k... lol... but overall the vid is just like who he is: explicitly sexy n is not afraid to show it.. lol.. the vid's rite down here.. clicky!!! X3
p/s: those who have no idea who's Jeffree Star, um... well, it might look really (REALLY) weird.. n VERY explicit.. aaah.. so don't 'clicky' if ur not comfy bout it.. lol.. i don't wanna be responsible for some cultivated shock kay.. heh.. ja~
So, I am probably one of the few people who haven't seen New Moon, by which I've watch last night and here was my first impression "God, what's wrong with Edward's eyebrow? It's freaking thick and bushy!" -.-' It was...not good. lol. After the first 15 minutes, I was waiting, anticipating and begging for the movie to come to an end. It was too fast the way the storyline goes on (though I prefer too fast rather than too slow eg. Twilight) and there isn't enough time for we viewers to...err...how do I say this...menghayati the certain scenes .lol. I am soo not making any sense.
And dude, Edward and Bella are so stiff. -.-' -gets stoned by their fanatic fans- And Jane, I wish there were more scenes of her. TT.TT Jacob was...hot. XD Eventhough he's a bit too bulky for my liking. Kinda prefer the lean wiry type. He's hot only after he cut those hideous long wig hair of his. -shudders- All in all, the movie was like an amateur work. -gets spanked by the director and a whole hour of lecture of how difficult to direct a movie- Gotta say the action scenes were wow! I was begging for more! Especially when it involves those cute, cuddly, furry werewolves!
I give it a 2 out of 5. XD
And here are a little something!
XD I LOVE CASSIES! THEY ARE FUNNY!!!
-aish
p/s currently watching vampire diaries from Anna. -swoons- Damon is freaking HOT! LOL. I'll comment about it later after I've watch the whole 10 episodes. =)
rite, i'm feeling a lot better now.. Thank GOD!! nway, my mp3 rosak.. i'm sad, of cos..but, couldn't blame it.. betul kot, mybe dia mrajuk sbb aku nk beli ipod..xP
ape2pun, i want to officially say goodbye to 'him'... dear mp3... thanks 4 being such a great company of mine for 2yrs.. i'll treasure our memories together..sob..sob.. (wat a drama queen...XP)
i'm so tired...working wth my mom is such a chaos!! but, yeah! no choice, meh...sigh.
btw, tieq.. i accidentally ate a CHICKEN BALL that i deep-fried jz now.. dammit, man!! it's my mom's fault!! she asked me to test hw it tasted... i didn't realize it's chicken!!! scheisse~~ i feel so bad, lol~~ will be extra careful next time...
SHOUT: i want takoyaki too!!! huhu~~~ wait 4 mee !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I don't know why I'm so emotional these days... THEY WON BEST ASIAN STAR!!! OMG!!! but only three of them went to the award... WHY!!!??? =.='(totally overreacting...)
-sigh-
Here's the vid. Big Bang is also there and oh Big Bang won Best New Artist for some kind of award show in Japan. I forgot. lol.
Congratulations!!!~~~ You guys deserve it!!! =)
p/s - this is one is for Una though I don't know whether she'll read this or not. Kim Jaejoong and Kim Hyunjoong were spotted at Vancouver! lol. As far as I know, Jaejoong is doing some kind of documentary. I dunno about Hyunjoong. I'm like a stalker. lol. Knowing where each one of them are. Hehehe. This is not an obsession people! This is called fandom! Got it?! XD
Yes.. This post will be about fanfics.. yaoi ones.. so press the 'x' button if ur not interested but those who do listen to my infinite rambles!! o.0
Here's the deal.. I was on (whatelse) fanfiction.net when i stumbled upon some of the most ridiculous fanfics ever created... D= -aghast- seriously! let's see..
What I hate most:
- Naruto is a girl concept.. [like wtf?! he's a guy.. n will always be a guy... for fucks sake la.. =.=]
- Sasuke secretly loves Sakura [that is so not happening.. if he wasn't gay, he'd probably be asexual.. n seriously, he does not even like Sakura]
- Character bashing. [I don't love Sakura or anything but seriously... they always portray her as a bitch and that she deserves a slap ALL the time.. like wtf?]
- Incest.. aha.. no offense.. just this particular one la.. itasasu.. sheesh.. D=
Anyway, let's get away from all that hate and i'll post things I love.. =3
Nad, let me introduce u to Sai.. lol.. this is just a small comic strip they made.. it is sooooooo Sai.. XD sai really sexual harasses naruto.. lol
a cute pic of sai and naruto.. eheh.. i like sai with glasses.. no, i have a fuckin fetish for guys with glasses.. D=
other funny strips:
kihkih.. loved this one..
haha.. i love the whole sasu against sai battle.. XD
but seriously, hands down i'm a sasunaru fan.. not gonna change.. heh.. thing i love bout this pic is the angle of the picture that doesn't show their whole face, but seriously their body is doing the talking.. XD yum... lol
L.O.S.T. main (MAIN) members are me(aish), nad and tieq. -.-' We then kinda branch out(?) and are now made up of 7 people which are me, nad, tieq, teah, dja, anna and una. (if the people mention wishes not to be a part of lost then do tell so that I can erase your name). We consider ourselves to be cool people (-.-''') and we are basically your average ordinary teenagers who each has different personality but kinda mesh together. I'm not making any sense XP.
I'll just leave it till here then.
